THE HEATHER

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Thursday, September 06, 2007

Uncharacterically ruminative

Qianru, Xiaotong and I went to McDonalds to do mostly
Math last night.I was the first to reach so I randomly
sat on the first seat I saw at the entrance. I applaud
my pick of the table because apparently, 3 male figures
were behind me and the one who has his back facing mine
must have been unaware that I was there as
I literally slipped into the chair and browsed through
the attributes guidelines. He stretched and his hand bumped
my head. Rascal. LOL
Well, at least we had a good laugh while listening to their
conversation which has the ability to make us laugh
periodically. Okay, we moved to the centre and started
the intended math marathon which ended at 3,30 when
we (or I?) decided to have a morning jog around. At least
the jog kept us awake all through breakfast at 4am,
only.
We went to punggol beach just in time to see the sunrise
though the sky's already well-lit then. It's a change
because your spirits would be lifted as well when the golden ball
rose. Xiaotong and I went back to school to fill out the
personal qualities of, yup you guessed it, OURSELVES.
It's totally inappropriate and imagine you writing your own
testimonial. I just crapped the entire thing like
'Oh, I never absent myself from school ---> high efficiency
(learnt from Mr Ong in Geog, produce greater productivity!)
LOL Sorry Mrs Wong VeiLi, I guess you'll need to make the
effort to get to know us better than to use templates and
the cliches.

It's been a toughie. Should I even get closer to someone's who is
said to have a half year left? The small gestures like his grasping
my hand touches me and I am not ready to face another one.
The previous one left so many of us stranded, an intangible
quality of mystery that we can never comprehend for his ways
are above our ways and his thoughts are above our thoughts.
For some obscure reasons, we hated the word 'acceptance'.
We didn't need comfort nor the assurance, we needed him
back. We doubted and asked all the 'whys' and 'what ifs'
only to indulge in self-denial. Now, with all the friends and
families and whatnot, I am tired Lord. Give me rest.
What if everything that took place this year didn't occured,
how things would have changed!
They're not helping by hiding things from me. Not at all
Because when they or maybe only she is hurting,
I know.
They were once like lillies on the pond,
they were once like the heather in the country,
they were once like dandelions out in the paddies,
where have they all gone to now?
Lord, bless your servants Father Matthias Tung and
Anthony Chia. May the latter be prepared and unafraid like
before, not letting a change in this world like age affect and
shaken his faith because these are superficial. You will
be clothed purest and with radiance and youth.
Yes, because all that have happened,
is called, Life
Indeed, uncharacteristically ruminative

Granted at 10:01 PM

The Water Underneath

Tomorrow is not a promise; but a chance.

Psalm 105:4-5 (NIV)
"Look To The Lord And His Strength;
Seek His Face Always.
Remember The Wonders He Has Done."

1 Samuel 16:7 (NIV)
"The Lord does not look at the things man looks at.
Man looks at the outward apperance, but the Lord looks
at the heart."

1 Corinthians 15:19 (NIV)
"If only for this life we have hope in Christ, we are
to be pitied more than all men."

1 Corinthians 13:4-7,13
"Love is patient and kind;
it is not jealous or conceited or proud;
love is not ill-mannered or selfish or irritatable;
love does not keep a record of wrongs
love is not happy with evil,
but is happy with the truth.
Love never gives up;
and its faith, hope and patience never fail."
"Meanwhile these three remain:
faith, hope and love;
and the greatest of these is love."